Today I was told what a terrible person, I am
Today I was told how many people I worked with hated me
Today I was told how I suck the happiness out of people
Today I was told I was worthless
Today I was told I get in people’s way
Today I was told how fucking bad I am.
I went to sit in a dark room, and I guess the way I feel right now my life was a total waste of a good life………..that god gave me……….
Then I cried
Not feeling good, chemo sick.
Feeling better
You can’t let the cancer win. Quote from my bother before lymphoma won.
We had to come back to Madison today. Coffee had a blood count to low for chemo Tuesday and because she was lymph node stable they didn’t want to wait a week. So we are back today…..however……we will have to drive home in not only -3 degree weather – 42 degree wind chill but also in snow!
I luv this chair
Drove in snow to get to Madison today, the roads on the highways were not too bad we could only go about 50 rather than 65 but when we got to Madison, a major mess. It took a whole 40 minutes from the edge of Madison to the UW Madison vet clinic. 2 hours 10 minute drive and ….no chemo today. Blood count had to be 1400 and it was only 1250.
I luv this chair
