House remodeling update step 1

The remodeling on the outside of the house was scheduled for October, but because of a little bit of a delay in another job, they crew could start now. So off with the old siding. Along with the old siding coming off…….we found some old remodeling.

Beginning

Beginning

Disability

Have a brain injury. Most people can’t see it from the outside, but I know it every day when I try it function like normal. It’s so hard. I never want to give up but it gets to me, it really does….

Find. My $10 table

I saw a nice looking man sitting at the curb with a sign that said estate sale. I decided to stop because the area is questionable. The man there said I can’t gibpve anything away but make an offer. I am stuck here on my vacation day. He pointed to this table and said, make an offer. I said I don’t need a table. He said anything but free and I said I only have $10. He said sold and put it in my car.

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Zoo

Jodi and Meagan

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Jodi and Meagan

We are going to the zoo today with Meagan. So exiting! I love it when we make a memory. Memories are all you have in the long run!

Magic

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I still believe in magic. I still believe in Santa. I love magic. I also believe in true love. I know I will never see the magic I love in my life time and I will never have true love but I can believe.

Have you ever see the movie Kate and Leapold? Well I get really depressed at the end of that movie because her belief in love is so strong she jumps off the Brooklyn Bridge….and takes that leap of faith back in time…..I have never loved someone like that enough to jump off a bridge and believe I was going back in time to be with them…how sad that makes me…never to have found that kind of love…even once

Growing up in abuse

My therapist told me once as much as my father taught me how to hate that’s how much more my mother taught me to love, and love won out. Growing up in abuse is not easy and if it wasn’t physical it was emotional. I guess time has taken its toll on me and while I have a high tolerance to people being mean to me, it’s not easy for me to see it or be around it. Yet daily I still live with it…….

Hello August 2014

I am not good at change…never have been…..I like safe. I have always envied those friends that followed their dreams and lived pay check to paycheck and lived off their artistic talents or did work where they were their own boss and could do consulting work. I was never meant to be like that but I have always envied them

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