Archive May 14, 2017

Dear Mama
I miss you so much. It’s been 22 years since you left the earth and went to heaven and there hasn’t been a day I haven’t missed you. I knew my life would never be the same when I walked down that long hallway away from your room after saying goodbye. I’ll never forget how that felt, walking into a world knowing it would never be the same and I would never be the same. It was the strangest feeling walking away fro. You and the life I had known with you. You were my guiding light for better tomworse. I love you.

My sister who doesn’t leave the house much anymore, went to the garden center with me today and to George Webbs for lunch. The garden center is a temporary center in a parking lot. fruit of the Bloom and my favorite lunch super George burger and fries.

In the afternoon David and I went to drive. Hyundai Santa Fe, not too bad…

Is 56 too old for this hair?

Radiation day 6 of 10. Up and out. Creamy is number 2 today. We brought Milo for support and we went around the lake for a walk. So after today we have 4 more days to go. Hopefully they will ontinue to see air pockets in the tumor as it dies. If it died too fast then that means it would come back quickly if it comes back. That means it quick growing. This tumor is not.

Well Creamy is up and going all day. She stole my sandwich for dinner. She never did that before…..too funny….I did laundry and got everything ready for taking off at 8 on Monday. We are ready harnesses waiting, lunch packed, backpack loaded. Done

We get 2 days off radiation today, so I went to Sams club and the grocery store. We are good to go next week. Easy food, like sloppy joes, hot dogs, ham sandwiches. Everything gets BBQ beans and chips. So easy peasy…..

We went to radiation today but as short as yesterday was that is how long today was. When we got here the radiation machine was down and they had to wait for a tech from the company to come fix it. So finally Creamy went in at 1:30. So we didn’t make the trip for nothing but we didn’t get home until 5:30, drove thru rush housr but she got her treatment, that was god and after 5 days we are all dragging.

Creamy had the whole family go with her to treatment today. That was so nice. We all supported her. It was so fun. And it was only 2 hours. She has woken up very fast from anesthetic and we only waitied a short time. But wheel we were here everyone took a walk. 2 at a time.

Here we are, with out second day of radiation. I take her home every night, and she has a catheter in her leg with a brace and it’s covered. So they don’t have to reinsert it everyday. Last night I gave her some tramadol for pain so she would sleep good. And I am exhausted.

I packed a lunch and found a nice commons area in the etrunary building to sit and work.