Archive December 31, 2014

Happy New Year. Do you make resolutions, I do. Here are mine.

I am finishing my diet.
I am working on my blog.
I am helping Coffee fight cancer.
I am finishing the rehabbed house.
I am staying on my budget with 0 spending

Coffee’s chemo stopped working. Her lymph nodes are huge. We went for an emergency opening at the oncology unit. Coffee’s cancer has progressed. Not the chemo or herbs are working. The doctor said we did have other options there is one tried chemo and one experimental chemo left. Coffee doesn’t have much time. She will never see the new fence at the new house up north. She will never see the spring. She won’t see her next birthday. She won’t see me everyday when I wake up. She won’t be there anymore….how do I do this?

When dad was getting sick he would tell me words mean nothing. Words on television , in plays, in newspapers mean nothing. Yet I am a teacher and I lived by words. I taught children letters, and letter combinations, and words to read and words to comprehend. I showed them books in my 8000 book collections that sent them to new places and new adventures. My life has been made around words. So in my new house their is a vinyl saying in every room, that matches that room.

I used to tell my students when they were called names not to start fights over words, walk away.

But words rule out lives and words are everywhere. Words are important.

Coffee had good blood work today and she seems to be not as sick from this chemo as the last three weeks. She still gets tired and she still goes up and down on eating. I did find out that there is a Facebook group called canine cancer support. They are really nice people who are going thru the same things we are. 8000 dogs a year are diagnosed with cancer.

My teacher tree has been made over 27 years as a teacher. I have receivers so many ornaments as gifts they now have their own tree. In trying to decide what to make as the dominant ornament I was thinking apples but I decided on alphabet ornaments after seeing some on Pintrest. so I have a red and white teachers tree with alphabet ornaments. As I added the ornaments the students have given me thru the years I tried to mark them with the name and date of each student who gave me the ornament.mi decided red and white lights but as I decorated I also have decided to add some ornaments from favorite u tis I have don as I find a matching ornaments. Holiday Celebrations around the world were a favorite so I have poinsettias for Mexico. I have my three favorite units for December: Wisconsin Evergreen Trees, Gingerbread, and reindeer. Then there were all those clothespin ornaments we used to make every year, so we have clothespin ornaments in the tree. I have some candy cane ornaments, for those candy cane projects. Because doing the Drug Free Schools Elves Projects with the whole school was always a favorite of mine there are three elves on the tree. I will add more as I go thru and find the ornaments.

I used to watch Regis and Kathy Lee once in awhile usually reruns in the summer. Kathy Lee used to have a real potted family christmas tree that they would decorate and then plant in a special area so the trees would grow as her family grew. I wanted to do that so much! So here is our first tree, it small not like Kathy Lee’s but it will sit on the porch at Christmas time 1014 and then be planted in the yard of Memory Manor, the first tree……

I have a hidden disability. No one can see a brain injury. I get so depressed from hurting, wanting to sleep all the time, not being able to do numbers and getting so confused all the time. I hate it……and people can’t see it, they don’t understand.