Classroom poster
I used to have this poster hanging behind my desk at school. It was too complicated for the kids to understand but toxic thoughts will really eat you away. I am trying my best to let go, and move forward. I don’t really have a clear line of sight or a ending destination. I am a person who always needs to have the ending goal established firmly in my mind to reach it. I knew what the decorations I did for the school would look like. I knew what the family nights I planned would look like. I could visualize them in my head. I can’t visualize where my path is going right now and it’s hard.
I have to stop looking at life like I am a victim. It makes me feel vulnerable and ashamed and somehow I have to get past that. I really do.
I have to stop looking at other things. Dad used to say nothing was good enough for me, and I always wanted more. He was right.
I have to let go of being a teacher and be something else. God I let that job define me and that was wrong. Of course it took up almost every waking moment, until I fell into bed but I am not a teacher anymore. What am I?
I guess I need so new positive thoughts!
